LAWET

Kaustav Ghosh

It was at 11.59 pm, 31/12/2019. It was the  last time I was excited about the beginning of the new year. And after that I feel scared like hell, like every year is into a competition of making my life into ruins scattered with dead emotions, people, dreams, aspirations, planning. Like god’s plan to make me feel whatever I have today is better than tomorrow/next year.

But every year made me stronger even if there were so many storms,but this year did the opposite. It hit the stronghold of mine which ensured my quiver on myself.

The damage it did which I have not experienced ever before.

But I’m still thankful for this year. It was the year of learning, realising from within, knowing my worth, knowing the real people. It is the year of academic success, getting gold medals and certificates. It is the year on which my poetry book was published in the Kolkata Book fair and that too written in my native language bengali. I got two medals for publication in a weekly Bengali literature journal and got it from North 24 parganas district book fair at Naihati rail ground.

It was the year when I danced and played football with my students. It was the year when I hit the gym again. It was the year of better health of mine and my parents. The last two years were really a nightmare in the health sector. I hope that I can say this year as a year of recovery.

It was the year I celebrated my two elder brother’s marriage and on both occasions, I have enjoyed like tomorrow is the last day of mine. It was the year when I saw the shadow, the cloud and which is hiding under the cloud.

It was the year when I started learning more about video editing and artificial intelligence. I still remember it was 31/07/2023 when my youtube  channel got deleted. Today I have a youtube channel with 32000 subscribers with more than one lakh views. I know this is nothing but still it is the beginning to reach more and more people.

It is the year when I have to see my friends arrogance as some of them are married, I am not; they have lakhs of money, I have not; for them they could enjoy luxurious and lavish life in tier one city and I am stuck in my home town. They have even doubted as I don’t have a govt job, how I will be able to earn one course meal in future. Except the Lord, God himself none knows the future. I am a self contained person with the intention of having more spiritual progress rather than material success. I am thankful to God for what I am, whatever I have. If the almighty desires he can make me king or marginalised  in the whims of a second. I know that he has some bigger plan for me, I may doubt myself but will never doubt my lord.

It was the year when I enjoyed a cosy lunch and dinner at the top restaurant of the town, and tasted several continental dishes which I have never tasted before in my life.

This year started with a picnic at Jaynagar majilpur, very old town, famous for its ‘Moa’, one kind of sweet; where I have visited chandi mandir, dhwanantari kali mandir with my nephew. Experience of

It was the year I went to Puri twice, that too the first time. I went to Puri six times before this year, that too at the time of Rathyatra 21st July, 2023. But this year I went to Puri for a solo trip on 4/4/2025 and then on 28/5/2025 with my father. This time we took Vande Bharat with my father towards puri and first class coupe for returning back to the home for the first time ever. This time we revisited old places alongwith new tourist destinations in the puri city. I went to sakkhi gopal twice this year, before 2025 it never happened.From puri we went to the taratarini temple at ganjam district of Odisha. By road we crossed chilka lake, hill areas and then entered this maha satipith.

This is the year when I got my first passport, celebrating my birthday with my students for the first time.

I would like to thank this year which ensured reunion with my old school friends after one and half decades. This year I took a bike ride with my nephew for the first time to that side of Eco park where I have never ever visited.

This is the year of taking the most long drives by car ever in my life. It was the year of taking new spectacles and Eye check up for the first time. This is the year when I took the rope way after six years. This is the year of starting full stretched Howrah maidan-Sector five under river metro after waiting for decades or more.

This is the year of enjoying the most in durgapuja and visiting the highest pandals ever in my life. This is the year of entering a new puppy in our life. This is the best year to enjoy specific time with all the brother in law. It all started with visiting coffee shops to shopping.

This is the year of knowing my photography skill which I found really excellent this year.

This is the year when people or team could delete their “chokers/loser” tag, long wait was rewarded. Like Rcb won ipl first time, east bengal got some success after long time, Indian women cricket team won world cup for the first time. After waiting for so many decades psg won UCL, Mohun Bagan won ifa shield after 23 years, won isl double for the first time and this year mohun Bagan dominated isl by crossing fifty points(56 points). They are the first club to reach fifty points. May be one of the best successes in the  Indian club national football league circuit.

This was the year of rahu antardasha and it’s ending. It was full of clouds and lack of clarity. It was full of self doubts and shattered confidence. It was the year of unstable and uncertainty of life. Thus it was the year of self learning, accepting the mistakes of this life time and to correct that once and for all. THIS IS THE YEAR WHEN I BROUGHT MOST OF THE THINGS FOR MYSELF. CLOTHES, ACCESSORIES. THIS YEAR TAUGHT ME SELF LOVE. Though it was the year of the most sleepless night, medicines but yet it gave me luxury things to make me learn-

“Whatever may happen in life, we should not compromise to enjoy life like a king.”